Hello! It has officially been a year since I have moved to Dallas and I still don’t know where the time has gone…In this past year I have learned so much about myself, had my eyes and heart open to so much more than I thought possible, and in a weird way I think I have finally realized what I am looking for in life and not being so scared to let people in. Of course I take it one day at a time and God bless whoever has the patience to wait for my walls to come down. But I feel like this past year forced me to see life through MY eyes and no one else. I didn’t really know anyone here and retreated into a hole and refused to come out for months. But these past two months something inside of me changed, I can’t quite my finger on it but I started to feel different…alive again really. I would wake up and tell myself “today is going to be a good day.” I kept my positive attitude going, I told myself to go out and live again, suddenly the sun was shining brighter, I wasn’t saying “no” or make up lame excuses to hang out, my relationships with my loved ones is getting better, my communication with others is changing, I am not so scared to let others in as much anymore, and I am learning slowly it is okay to let people to get to know the real Soloni. I am not saying that every thing is peachy keen over here in Soloni town but I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. My future is bright but only if I continue to open my heart up to life. I don’t want to be afraid anymore…I honestly just want to be my best self but my true self not what I think the world wants me to be. I am kind, intelligent, goofy, quirky, fashion conscious, very loving when given time, a good friend, shy when it comes to guys, a bit dramatic, cultured, obsessed with the LA Lakers and OCK Thunder, proud of her heritage, and a self proclaimed foodie.
I just moved to the city a month ago so I continue to look forward to my new adventures. Cheers to 2016 of being the year of not being scared anymore, letting people get to know me, opening my heart to new things, but most of all never losing my happiness to my fears again.
“The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way that we can grow is if we change. The only way that we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we can become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open. Do it. Throw yourself.” -C. Joybell C.